it's all slowed down

like the build up of a symphony or
the slow frames of a movie before
the hero's best friend dies

it stretches and tightens and screams and
no one really knows where the breaking point is

Every thought is forced and every action is muted. I have been to the top of the mountain and I have achieved what few people do - I've lived my dream, the ultimate realization of my life's goals. I woke up from the dream earlier than I'd hoped, but I did it, I lived the dream and now I don't want to dream anymore.

"Wide eyed and cynical
Right to the middle
The emotion I can't keep away
The solution is clinical
Little by little I cut you away
Keep cutting away
Killing my love
Killing my love for you

Even now in front of me
I disavow the family
Here and now it would be all beyond a doubt
In my life
Truth and you not all you could be
Killing my love
Killing my love for you

No right no wrong no true no lie
No I no long no live no die
No die no live no live no love
No love no lose no leaving of
No see nowhere no air no sky
No true no dare no reason why
No have no say no say no do
No god no pray no me no you"